Sunday, July 19, 2009

It aint easy likin me

I just wanna say its not gonna be easy liking sum1 like me. I change my mind daily like i change my panties. I have an attitude thats pretty bad when im angry? an ive done things that only makes sense to me and no 1 else. so thats why it really wont be easy liking me. But i have friends that dig me and they know me like the back of their hands. they know at the end of the day that i would give them one of my eyes if they went blind..... or a kidney if that meant they needed to live. im that kinda friend buif you say one thing to upset ne of my friends i will be in your face so fast u swear i was the irs.

WHY.................

sorry i been missing in action but this blog is dedicated to you. no you the reader but u who is the inspiration behind this blog entry. Im been avoiding you for a reason. It doesnt feel good to treat you like this at all matter of fact its makin my stomach hurt and my eyes water typing this. But i think that its for the best. why do you act one way one day then switch it up as if u dont know me from jack and Jill. its okay though bc i dig it like a shovel. I just think that if u were a dude or man as you so say then act like one. Dont treat me like im some second rate bitch u meet a club...... that im good one day but then next im not shit..... you do you and i will do me thanx for nu10 bye......

Friday, July 3, 2009

Boyfriend/Husband Application

Boyfriend/Husband Application
  1. Name
  2. Age
  3. Living situation
  4. Marital Status or are you dating or in a relationship now
  5. Gender (they way you were born)
  6. Are you currently employeed? How long?
  7. Are you in school? If so what major
  8. Do you have kids? If so how many? are they from the same women?
  9. Have you ever been in a long committed relationship?
  10. If so How long? Why did it end?
  11. Have you cheated before? If so how many times?
  12. Have you ever had gay tendencies?
  13. How do you treat your mother?
  14. Did your father have an active role in you growing up?
  15. What are your hobbies?
  16. Do you have goals that you are trying to reach?
  17. Have you accomplished something from that goal list?
  18. What do you do for fun?
  19. Are you a drinker smoker drug user?
  20. Can you hop on one foot rub your stomach and pat your head?
  21. Are you into music?
  22. Can you dance sing act play sports?
  23. Are you mean cool or caring?
  24. Have you cried infront of a girl before?
  25. What makes you happy?
  26. What makes you sad?
  27. What gets on your nerves as far as girls are concerned?
  28. what gets on your nerves period?
  29. Do you have siblings?
  30. Are you close wit your family?
  31. Can you cook? if so can you clean up after yourself?
  32. Do you keep a clean room or house apt?
  33. Can you swim?
  34. what extreme sports do you like?
  35. do you play video games all the time?
  36. Do you have a car?
  37. Do you like blue bell ice cream?
  38. Do you travel?
  39. Are you currently ashy?
  40. when was the last time you took a bath? not a shower
  41. Why are you filling this out?
  42. Do you wanna know about me?
  43. Do you know where i stay?
  44. Can you ride a bike?
  45. Can you cut grass? take out trash
  46. Do you think im cute or sexy?
  47. Why havent we meet before?
  48. Why arent you married yet or have kids if you dont have kids?
  49. do you handle your money wisely?
  50. Do you like kisses or hugs?
  51. Add something that will make you stand out above everyone else?

These are just some of the things i require to know. I dont realy care if you went to jail as a young person everyone makes mistakes. No one is perfect. Im just asking to to see if we would click.I didnt ask any sexual questions because i really dont care. Not to say that sex isnt important. its just that why base a relationship soley on sex. okay print save and email it to me mzhtx832@gmail.com or leave a comment at the bottom. i will read everyone of them.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Shaping behavior

How do we as humans change the way we behave? Some studies suggest that through operant and observational conditioning we are able to reshape ourselves to behave in a way that we would like. Take for instance my four year old cousin Ranyia she needs to learn how to act more like a child and less like an adult.
Ranyia is constantly around adults while she is out of school. She mimics her behavior on what she sees and hears her mother and other adults say. Thus for, making her behavior that of a tiny adult. She was an only child until her mother gave birth to her younger sister which has made her behavior far worse than what it initially was.
With Ranyia I tried to use coloring books and crayons but that seemed to work only for a couple of minutes before she was right back to being in adult conversations. I also tried placing her in time out because I can’t bring myself to whoop a child that isn’t mine. The more I ignore her behavior the more she becomes intolerable.
For my first experiment I told her that if I had to say something to her about her behavior that I wouldn’t take her to the movies. As I watched her throughout the day she behaved like a regular child. All she kept repeating was that she was going to the movies or more so hanging out with me. The next day and days after that leading up until Friday her behavior was alright. When Friday came around she complete did a 180 and went back to acting out and being unruly. So I told her that we weren’t going to the movies and that she would have to try again next week. This resulted in her running to her mother crying about why she couldn’t go to the movies and that she wanted to go now. I pulled her over to the side and explained to her that because she decided to act up we weren’t going and that only good girls go to the movies.
The next day I woke up and she had packed my shoes in a bag and told me I didn’t stay there. She also stated that she would get my brother to take her to the pool because she didn’t get to go to the movies. I didn’t get mad or angry I sat her down again and explained that she wasn’t going anywhere and that she would stay in the room until her mother was ready to leave. She didn’t listen and ran around the house. I didn’t say anything the whole day to her. When she walked up to me asking for a hug I ignored her and pretended I didn’t even she her or hear her talking. I went back to my apartment for a couple of days and her mom was calling me for here wondering when I was coming back over. I explained that she acts up when im there so maybe when she doesn’t her me her behavior will change.
The next time I talked to her mother was a few days later she had told me that Ranyia wakes up everyday and calls her self cleaning up in hopes that I will come back. That’s when I knew that she wanted attention because the new baby was taking up her mother’s time. I realized that it also meant she needed to socialize with kids her own age.
I arranged for my brother and his girlfriend to pick her up and take her out to the local pool. Therefore she gets away from being around her mother when she has her attention on the baby and not on her. Also she can meet kids her own age and interact with them on her level. She also got rewarded for trying to clean up and act more like a child than an adult. To maintain her behavior I let her know that every time that she acted up that I would not come around and see her. That she wasn’t allowed to go anywhere unless it was with her mother. Soon after that she has been going to the pool and the movies because she wants the attention she was getting at first before the baby arrived.

Do what you gotta do

“Do What You Gotta Do” is a song composed by male R&B group 112. When hearing this song it makes oneself feel about the situation men deal with they are in relationship outside their committed relationships. Men don’ initially fall for the other women to be mean or spiteful towards her it just certain situations happen.

I was always on the phone in the bathroom
You were always in the kitchen at the sink
Girl I was always tryna tell you
I’m having relations and its getting kinda deep
Now even though we been together for a long time
Girl you know and I know things are not the same
Before we go on any longer wasting all this time
I gotta let you know I’m bout to make a change I’m…



With this verse a person can tell that they were avoiding each other. Each person going their on separate way in the house. Pulling away from each other not wanting to be in the same room with one another is told tale signs or problems in a relationship.

You were always in the bedroom watchin’ TV
I was always downstairs on the couch
While you were always undecided on a movie
I was tryna get up out this house
And then I noticed how you always went to sleep
When it was
Time for you
To give that ass to me
And you wonder why a brotha wants to creep
Well its time to let you know I got someone who feels me

Couples that start to branch out and do things on there on tend to feel crowed in their relationships and just want me time. While the other is in love with them being neglected and having to do stuff on your own is never fun for anyone person. So when they branch out to someone that feels the same way they do that’s when the cheating comes into play. Sex also plays a big role in relationship as well. When one person wants to have sex and the other doesn’t. How do people say “I would like to have sex today” or “I really don’t feel up to it” without making the other person feel not wanted.

Sorry I lied to you
But im not sorry
That I fell deep
In love with her
So baby
Do what you gotta do

When the person that has been cheated on finds out what words can you possibly say to him/her? You have to tell them that you fell in love with the other person. You shouldn’t be sorry because that person pushed you away and really didn’t say what you did to them to treat you so cold and distant.

Something’s goin on
Something goin’ on where did we go wrong
What happen to the love I used to get at home
You be on my mind used to be my dime
Used to spend talkin’ on the phone
But now that things have changed
I’m jumping in my Range
And I’m rollin out

Things changed so much that the only thing left to do is leave. They use to treat you one way but switched the relationship up. The love is not there anymore.


i analyzed this tell me what ya think